I want to remember to remember to forget you forgot me.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 07:37:57 GMT

sit and think of you only, only
Like a dream, you came to me, meant to be forever
Without you I am so lonely, so lonely
So tell me where have you gone now, where have you gone?

Our love will live in the afterworld
Some things will never end, they're just too strong
It soars into the sky, beyond this world

I'll wait for you until the afterworld
We'll be together soon, it won't be long
When life goes by so fast in this world
In this world

Beyond the heavens above, beyond anything
Beyond the moment our eyes stare and see eternity
Beyond our bodies in this life, beyond the end
Is the place where our love will never die

Our love will live in the afterworld
Some things will never end, they're just too strong
It soars into the sky, beyond this world

I'll wait for you until the afterworld
We'll be together soon, it won't be long
When life goes by so fast in this world
In this world

I'll wait for you until I leave this world
I'll carry our love into the afterworld
This is not farewell, I'll meet you in the afterworld
Don't despair my love, I'll see you in the afterworld

im pretty damn happy here and now.. Thats for sure

thanks tash

youve got to let me dream

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 20:43:39 GMT

so im picking skateboarding back up i cant really stuntride any more without going to jail so it seems like a good choice.Also from my recent try im not to rusty so this should be fun

i have a feeling this is what i needed for awhile now

She is smiling like heaven's down on earth
And sun is shining so bright on her
All her wishes have finally come true
And her heart is weeping.
Cause Happiness is killing her.
It's true
she's in love

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

So hard she's trying
But her heart won't turn to stone...oh no
And she keeps on crying
Cause I won't leave her alone
She'll never be alone

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

close yet far

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 20:33:26 GMT

little button sleeps on my desk alot.
its cute so we are in the middle of cleaning house well i mean her it looks good so far still kinda sad about my mom but i guess theres not much i can do really.
nothing much has changed im a little bit more happy but things still seem very lame without my brother or mom here anymore.

who said that I wasn't right?
I've lived for years without a life
don't have a soul on my side
still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried
don't take me under your wing
I don't need a hand, don't need anything
I've got a roof over my head
as if I'd rather be alone with me instead

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
and I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
though I never never never ever wanted this to be

I can hear the sounds of the city
sunrise and set are the same to me
a hesitating pulse is good company
and my reflection offers no apology
but who said that I wasn't right?

lame-ness

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 21:01:46 GMT

so my mom is moving away witch is lame... today was her last day here. I woke up at about 11 and jumped in my car and drove over there. then nothing no car no penske truck just a for sale sign... man damn me and my late sleeping fuck thats lame. so i came home and made some sweet tea and played some video games I dont think it has really set in that my mom moved away yet witch is kinda odd since natashas mom is really sick.. i feel like crap because i always get angry at situations where i cant fix/ change anything so i get all pissy and hurt her feelings but o well just something eles i need to put on the 10 millions things to change about myself list i think things are better now. i still feel like shit for missing my moms cast off.. damnit im lame.. whoooo hoooooo lyrics always make the day better

feel the vapour pressure drop as the dark
steam pours out the entrance. real cold world is
swirling into a club that keeps the real
life world out. where every sense seems deathly
weak from the frozen time you spent in transit.
the glass dance world flickers on and the
low end thaws your anxious body

maybe i feel detatched, i may just look too shy,
it's a disinterest not that i'm a timid guy.
i call them bodies but, they are attentive too,
i feel the social glare i feel the attitude.

watch as mirrors clear themselves with the
breath of frigid air that eased in.
made up babies all rotate as a siren
spins a beam of amber. time sliced beat
by beat in a row, in a club.
in a line, in the city. the glass dance world
flickers on because the cycle happens enough:

a baby falls out warm, it's screaming for it's life,
an infant tries to dance as it grows up then dies.
that's simplified but uh. . .when your complexion dries,
you wake up cold and think, you wish it'd been this way.

whoooooo update

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 00:50:37 GMT

yep update time....
same house
new job
same car
new cat
same lovley girly
new rocking watch

thats about all i guess... no point in writing nobody reads this anyway

ps i did work on a computer that had spiders in it today that was odd i watched one walk into the cpu fan and spit out the other side... kinda odd

at least im busy

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 09:19:30 GMT

if she cleaned as much as me I would be wayy to bored with my time while shes at work.

on a different note our house is starting to look like a house minus the pile of boxes next to me. tomorrow she is picking up some vintage couch that i have heard soooo much about. from what i understand you melt when you sit on it, or you back start too hurt something like that.. I just wish she would understand she doesn't disappoint me I just wish we could spend more time I cant help it if I try to pack too many things into our hangout time making her come home sit on the bed and pass out immediately.. leaving me too pass time with loser video games showering (gasp yes I said it actually washing my hair) and cleaning the cat box and so on..

im happy that the place is coming together but i will warn you people..

tile floors + little kitten toys = horrible annoying nosies at 4 am

a black and white day

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 07:28:47 GMT

so its the end of our birthday.... I would say we had a good time but everything eles was shitty. Our place is great kinda like a little shelter it will be nice once we get everything moved in. She got me all the right gifts i always love her cards even if a little chaotic at times. things seem to be settling down no crazy landlord im getting more attached to my easy going lifestyle and the people in it even if i dont do so much stuff it beats getting tickets and spending money at partys and lame ass girls..... In short i couldn't be happier with things.. I just wish I could have made her day better..but we still have tomorrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OSHINA HOPE THINGS ARE GREAT IN THE KEYS....keep him in check heh

yayayaya

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 04:38:18 GMT

so coolness we move in on the first (our birthday) natasha is great things are great... umm i got a jetski thats fun now i just have to take it out and stuff after i get a few things... but yeah man i miss her i cant wait till we move into our cute little place yayayayaya

get behind me please im fine

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 20:33:52 GMT

ooo wow roys rocks read all about the lame ass fucking story here http://www.confusednation.com/ just scroll on down to "god help me" and read all about it folks

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 08:24:59 GMT

sucky sucky suck...
I need a place to live.. I also dont have credit. I filled out a app for a place today but the lady was a bitch so yeah that dident go over well... keep looking....

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 08:36:45 GMT

The cost of motor vehicle crashes that occurred in 2000 totaled $230.6 billion (latest year that information is available). This is equal to approximately $820 for every person living in the United States and 2.3 percent of the U.S. Gross Domestic Product. The lifetime economic cost to society for each fatality is almost 1 million dollars. Over 80 percent of this amount are attributable to lost work. Each critically injured survivor cost an average of $1.1 million.

Medical costs and lost work accounted for 84% of the cost for this most serious level of non-fatal injury. Lost workplace productivity costs totaled $61 billion, which equaled 26% of the total costs. Lost household productivity totaled $20.2 billion, representing 9% of the total costs. Total property damage cost for all types of crashes (fatal, injury, and property damage only) totaled $59 billion and accounted for 26% of all costs.

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jesus i hate this class i mean come on I cant read geez and playing games in a little window while waiting for 40 minutes to pass is gay... really gay..
I wonder how my brother is I hope this was worth the wait... lots of things have happened.. but i feel like I lost to very important people in my life.. my brother and harry... they both seem far away, I wish I could call harry siting with these little things of his is worse and not having my brother is odd kinda like a no place to turn even now writing about it on a lame webpage seems like a stupid idea, but then again I can always play some G/W heh I cant let this post seem to grim. even if things are. kinda/sorta/not/not sure

dear sweet dafafasdgg

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 18:44:30 GMT

So im taking a 12 hour online class......

im 2 hours into it and i want to shoot you and you and you..

thats really about all im just trying topass the time....

also.. I really need to get out more. I think tash is going to break my computer or something like that..

Fri, 19 May 2006 19:40:17 GMT

I get to goto disney world... Then goto warped tour... what more could she do for me, shes great....on a down note today was a lame day..

ehhh im done

Tue, 02 May 2006 21:25:02 GMT

so..I got my bike running YAY..

tash's car broke again...

I have a hot date tonight that will be fun...

shower time.

cat wont let me type here.

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 16:51:14 GMT

so after a very very long time and 3 or 4 fuel pumps I got tash's little car fixed..
too bad on the test drive I slammed on the brakes in front of some little old lady.
I mean come on I havent driven a automatic in forever, so what if i thought the brake was the clutch.

I am also painting on of the rooms props to chickadee for helping me. I really cant wait to get the upstairs painted.

daskldfaskl damnit cat.. he broke my mouse and now he likes to hit my hand everytime I press the spacebar..

so there was this super old broken swing out in the back-yard so I fixed the broken parts and found some chain and hung it upstairs on the porch. I really like it as soon as I paint it I want to take it over to oshina and have her add her nice touch to it...

well I guess thats really about all.

I am too cool for subject lines

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:46:36 GMT

we eat out a little to much and I think we both are going to get fat..

Also my plan to train my.....OUR little kitten into a death ninja seems to have worked a little to well..

now the little guy never stops attacking me or her or my hat or my shoes...
god hes crazy..

what bitch..

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 07:53:28 GMT

live for my independence
Live for my belief yeah
I live with my intentions
Careful falling for me

I've come to a new conclusion
On the folly in love and youth yeah
I’ve made my decision
Call it policy or truth

When I say

I say young love will only break your heart,
I say nothings going to change me

I still feel like shit...

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 03:15:06 GMT

"my life be like ooo aaa"

"living at your finger tips"

"some times I fall out of step"

fuck this fuck that

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 19:54:46 GMT

my everything hurts and its lame as hell

I'm running out of gauze and I lost my damn pain killers

to make things worse tash is out of town so I dont have my personal nurse..

damn scooters

fucking scooters

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 15:04:37 GMT

So went out with zach and everybody,

going down thomas drive at 3 am zach and I heading to corams. Then some great person thought it would be a great idea to leave a scooter in the road well I did my best to dodge it then down I she went. so plenty of cops fire truck and a ambulance I guess I made it out pretty good lots of road rash and sore spots thanks oshina and derek for patching me up since I couldn't let the emts do it Im not paying for that shit.

props to scott for driving me and my bike out to my house and also to zach for helping me out and paying for corams sucks I ripped my damn work pants as well. my everything hurts.

I was lucky. I will save you the pain and wont show the blood and such
the bike is a different story.

coolness

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 14:43:57 GMT

So we got a little baby kitten he rocks.
thats really all I have to say everything eles is rocking as well so yeah

lates

Yes sir..

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 04:06:52 GMT

Cease fire mother fuckers!!!!!!!

How does that feel. me..?? I feel great and it rocks.

ahhhhh, My heart just wont stop smiling.....

I'm feeling fine. The world is falling down

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 17:16:27 GMT

that's dandy.

My landlord never paid the power bill just took our money and yeah so we own them like 400 dollars. Now all of the water in the house comes out in this nasty shit color so that is lame as well. My job is very stress-full and seems like it never lets up. It's still cold outside so I still drive the car to much and I hate it. I over-think too much and worry just as much. My dad never seems happy with me but whats new. I have a never ending mess of clothes and such in my room.

I also learned the difference between "quirky" and "quorky" which I never knew along with details of "method acting" I like people that I can learn from considering how much I still need .to know

The best part is I have never been happier than this, things only seem to get better.

lates

lets play doctor.

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 19:07:39 GMT

props to the people that made my city hall this much cooler...

pizza sticks and purple gatorade

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 17:17:55 GMT

I work alot.

yep..

I have zero drama in life now. Its super cool gives me more time to eat and sleep even if it makes me 30 minutes late to pick people up. luna is a crack kitty so my new past time is dodges chicken and pizza sticks at 2 AM.

So my dad has this party tomorrow and I think I'm going to go... That will be fun I think.

I forgot how when spring break comes to this town every persons mind just shuts down and they all come into my work right before we close gahh vent vent rant rant

on a up note I have the money to get my new tattoo's I just need to catch up with Oshina( ahahah just try and explain that spell checker ahah) and toss some idea's around I'm sure she will come up with awesomes-ness like she always does yay I'm excited yay yay
time to CLEEEEEAAAAAANNNNNN.

XXlatesXX

Oh I can't get away
My mind's been up for days
Alright my ghosts are chasing me
Oh god damn you make me scream

(Dirty mind) tell me it's a dream
(Dirty life) oh I love the filthy scene
(Dirty mind) now don't you break my heart
(Dirty life) you're tearin' me apart

Oh I ain't slept for days
Now my mind is fuckin' crazy
Alright, ooh baby you mark my hide
God damn you make me cry

(Filthy) I'm comin' for you
(Fame) I want to shoot you up (Fancy)
I wanna do you (Fortune)
I wanna screw you up (Filthy)
I wanna fuck fuck fuck (Fame)
On this hot night! (Like Fancy)
Raping your fancy (Misfortune)
Under the spotlight

(Dirty mind) tell me it's a dream
(Dirty life) I love the filthy scene
(Dirty mind) now don't you break my heart
(Dirty life) oh you're tearin' me apart

Dirtiest fancy
Dirtiest fancy
Dirty and fancy
Dirtiest fancy
Tell me it's fancy
Tell me now it's fancy

(Dirty mind) tell me it's a dream
(Dirty life) I love the filthy scene
(Dirty mind) now don't you break my heart
(Dirty life) hey you're tearin' me apart