I want to remember to remember to forget you forgot me.

sit and think of you only, only
Like a dream, you came to me, meant to be forever
Without you I am so lonely, so lonely
So tell me where have you gone now, where have you gone?

Our love will live in the afterworld
Some things will never end, they're just too strong
It soars into the sky, beyond this world

I'll wait for you until the afterworld
We'll be together soon, it won't be long
When life goes by so fast in this world
In this world

Beyond the heavens above, beyond anything
Beyond the moment our eyes stare and see eternity
Beyond our bodies in this life, beyond the end
Is the place where our love will never die

Our love will live in the afterworld
Some things will never end, they're just too strong
It soars into the sky, beyond this world

I'll wait for you until the afterworld
We'll be together soon, it won't be long
When life goes by so fast in this world
In this world

I'll wait for you until I leave this world
I'll carry our love into the afterworld
This is not farewell, I'll meet you in the afterworld
Don't despair my love, I'll see you in the afterworld





im pretty damn happy here and now.. Thats for sure

thanks tash

so im picking skateboarding back up i cant really stuntride any more without going to jail so it seems like a good choice.Also from my recent try im not to rusty so this should be fun

i have a feeling this is what i needed for awhile now

She is smiling like heaven's down on earth
And sun is shining so bright on her
All her wishes have finally come true
And her heart is weeping.
Cause Happiness is killing her.
It's true
she's in love

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

So hard she's trying
But her heart won't turn to stone...oh no
And she keeps on crying
Cause I won't leave her alone
She'll never be alone

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

little button sleeps on my desk alot.
its cute so we are in the middle of cleaning house well i mean her it looks good so far still kinda sad about my mom but i guess theres not much i can do really.
nothing much has changed im a little bit more happy but things still seem very lame without my brother or mom here anymore.

who said that I wasn't right?
I've lived for years without a life
don't have a soul on my side
still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried
don't take me under your wing
I don't need a hand, don't need anything
I've got a roof over my head
as if I'd rather be alone with me instead

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
and I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
though I never never never ever wanted this to be

I can hear the sounds of the city
sunrise and set are the same to me
a hesitating pulse is good company
and my reflection offers no apology
but who said that I wasn't right?

so my mom is moving away witch is lame... today was her last day here. I woke up at about 11 and jumped in my car and drove over there. then nothing no car no penske truck just a for sale sign... man damn me and my late sleeping fuck thats lame. so i came home and made some sweet tea and played some video games I dont think it has really set in that my mom moved away yet witch is kinda odd since natashas mom is really sick.. i feel like crap because i always get angry at situations where i cant fix/ change anything so i get all pissy and hurt her feelings but o well just something eles i need to put on the 10 millions things to change about myself list i think things are better now. i still feel like shit for missing my moms cast off.. damnit im lame.. whoooo hoooooo lyrics always make the day better

feel the vapour pressure drop as the dark
steam pours out the entrance. real cold world is
swirling into a club that keeps the real
life world out. where every sense seems deathly
weak from the frozen time you spent in transit.
the glass dance world flickers on and the
low end thaws your anxious body

maybe i feel detatched, i may just look too shy,
it's a disinterest not that i'm a timid guy.
i call them bodies but, they are attentive too,
i feel the social glare i feel the attitude.

watch as mirrors clear themselves with the
breath of frigid air that eased in.
made up babies all rotate as a siren
spins a beam of amber. time sliced beat
by beat in a row, in a club.
in a line, in the city. the glass dance world
flickers on because the cycle happens enough:

a baby falls out warm, it's screaming for it's life,
an infant tries to dance as it grows up then dies.
that's simplified but uh. . .when your complexion dries,
you wake up cold and think, you wish it'd been this way.

yep update time....
same house
new job
same car
new cat
same lovley girly
new rocking watch



thats about all i guess... no point in writing nobody reads this anyway

ps i did work on a computer that had spiders in it today that was odd i watched one walk into the cpu fan and spit out the other side... kinda odd

if she cleaned as much as me I would be wayy to bored with my time while shes at work.

on a different note our house is starting to look like a house minus the pile of boxes next to me. tomorrow she is picking up some vintage couch that i have heard soooo much about. from what i understand you melt when you sit on it, or you back start too hurt something like that.. I just wish she would understand she doesn't disappoint me I just wish we could spend more time I cant help it if I try to pack too many things into our hangout time making her come home sit on the bed and pass out immediately.. leaving me too pass time with loser video games showering (gasp yes I said it actually washing my hair) and cleaning the cat box and so on..

im happy that the place is coming together but i will warn you people..

tile floors + little kitten toys = horrible annoying nosies at 4 am

so its the end of our birthday.... I would say we had a good time but everything eles was shitty. Our place is great kinda like a little shelter it will be nice once we get everything moved in. She got me all the right gifts i always love her cards even if a little chaotic at times. things seem to be settling down no crazy landlord im getting more attached to my easy going lifestyle and the people in it even if i dont do so much stuff it beats getting tickets and spending money at partys and lame ass girls..... In short i couldn't be happier with things.. I just wish I could have made her day better..but we still have tomorrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OSHINA HOPE THINGS ARE GREAT IN THE KEYS....keep him in check heh

so coolness we move in on the first (our birthday) natasha is great things are great... umm i got a jetski thats fun now i just have to take it out and stuff after i get a few things... but yeah man i miss her i cant wait till we move into our cute little place yayayayaya

ooo wow roys rocks read all about the lame ass fucking story here http://www.confusednation.com/ just scroll on down to "god help me" and read all about it folks

sucky sucky suck...
I need a place to live.. I also dont have credit. I filled out a app for a place today but the lady was a bitch so yeah that dident go over well... keep looking....

The cost of motor vehicle crashes that occurred in 2000 totaled $230.6 billion (latest year that information is available). This is equal to approximately $820 for every person living in the United States and 2.3 percent of the U.S. Gross Domestic Product. The lifetime economic cost to society for each fatality is almost 1 million dollars. Over 80 percent of this amount are attributable to lost work. Each critically injured survivor cost an average of $1.1 million.

Medical costs and lost work accounted for 84% of the cost for this most serious level of non-fatal injury. Lost workplace productivity costs totaled $61 billion, which equaled 26% of the total costs. Lost household productivity totaled $20.2 billion, representing 9% of the total costs. Total property damage cost for all types of crashes (fatal, injury, and property damage only) totaled $59 billion and accounted for 26% of all costs.

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jesus i hate this class i mean come on I cant read geez and playing games in a little window while waiting for 40 minutes to pass is gay... really gay..
I wonder how my brother is I hope this was worth the wait... lots of things have happened.. but i feel like I lost to very important people in my life.. my brother and harry... they both seem far away, I wish I could call harry siting with these little things of his is worse and not having my brother is odd kinda like a no place to turn even now writing about it on a lame webpage seems like a stupid idea, but then again I can always play some G/W heh I cant let this post seem to grim. even if things are. kinda/sorta/not/not sure

So im taking a 12 hour online class......

im 2 hours into it and i want to shoot you and you and you..

thats really about all im just trying topass the time....

also.. I really need to get out more. I think tash is going to break my computer or something like that..

I get to goto disney world... Then goto warped tour... what more could she do for me, shes great....on a down note today was a lame day..

ehhh im done

so..I got my bike running YAY..

tash's car broke again...

I have a hot date tonight that will be fun...

shower time.

so after a very very long time and 3 or 4 fuel pumps I got tash's little car fixed..
too bad on the test drive I slammed on the brakes in front of some little old lady.
I mean come on I havent driven a automatic in forever, so what if i thought the brake was the clutch.

I am also painting on of the rooms props to chickadee for helping me. I really cant wait to get the upstairs painted.

daskldfaskl damnit cat.. he broke my mouse and now he likes to hit my hand everytime I press the spacebar..


so there was this super old broken swing out in the back-yard so I fixed the broken parts and found some chain and hung it upstairs on the porch. I really like it as soon as I paint it I want to take it over to oshina and have her add her nice touch to it...


well I guess thats really about all.

we eat out a little to much and I think we both are going to get fat..


Also my plan to train my.....OUR little kitten into a death ninja seems to have worked a little to well..

now the little guy never stops attacking me or her or my hat or my shoes...
god hes crazy..

live for my independence
Live for my belief yeah
I live with my intentions
Careful falling for me

I've come to a new conclusion
On the folly in love and youth yeah
I’ve made my decision
Call it policy or truth

When I say

I say young love will only break your heart,
I say nothings going to change me


I still feel like shit...

"my life be like ooo aaa"

"living at your finger tips"

"some times I fall out of step"

my everything hurts and its lame as hell

I'm running out of gauze and I lost my damn pain killers

to make things worse tash is out of town so I dont have my personal nurse..


damn scooters

So went out with zach and everybody,

going down thomas drive at 3 am zach and I heading to corams. Then some great person thought it would be a great idea to leave a scooter in the road well I did my best to dodge it then down I she went. so plenty of cops fire truck and a ambulance I guess I made it out pretty good lots of road rash and sore spots thanks oshina and derek for patching me up since I couldn't let the emts do it Im not paying for that shit.



props to scott for driving me and my bike out to my house and also to zach for helping me out and paying for corams sucks I ripped my damn work pants as well. my everything hurts.

I was lucky. I will save you the pain and wont show the blood and such
the bike is a different story.